My ABNORMAL Study Habit

Most people may think, I study a lot. I'm often seen walking with books. In a tea shop with books. In school reading a book. In the classroom reading a book. But what most people do not know is that i do that because I cram. I don't like cramming but circumstances just do its way to make me cram in the end.

I always plan to study. I allocate time for studying. I always think I will study the whole weekend, or the whole day, or the whole afternoon or the whole evening. But I always end up cramming. Most of my classmates will say, "wow, you must have studied the whole weekend! You'll surely get a perfect score!"

I often say, "I wasn't able to!". And they will think I'm lying. . .

I have a few demands before I get immersed in studying. First, I should have a good sign pen with me. I will never start reading without a good sign pen. If I don't have one, I go out and buy a sign pen no matter how far the store will be. Next, I should have clean sheets of paper or a notebook with me. I usually write in order for me to remember what I read. My study materials should be complete, and i should drink coffee before I get started. Without these, i will just sit idly the whole day, or start reading without absorbing anything.

If you think I'll study peacefully after complying all my silly demands, well, NO. Once I start reading a page, I feel tired, and decide to have a break by checking my facebook or talking to someone in line. That will take about 30 minutes. So, I usually have a 30 minute break after one page of reading.

I try to keep my focus back on my material by sipping my coffee and sitting up straight. But somehow, i couldn't just maintain my focus. Sometimes, I end up repeating the same sentence five to ten times because i couldn't understand it. Worse is having to read the entire chapter because i didn't understand the whole thing, or I forgot the whole chapter. 

To keep my concentration back on, I try to go to the comfort room where I wouldn't have any distraction  and read an entire chapter in there. But I just couldn't last long in the CR. I always get my photocopies wet, and I get cramped in there. haha.

I also do not like studying with many people around me, because usually, I tend to start a conversation, or join whatever they are doing, or if I am feeling determined not to join them, I simply find them noisy, therefore impeding my concentration. That is why I like to go to other places to study alone. I go to coffee shops, tea shops, 24 hour food chains, and the living room of our boarding house. One thing why i like staying out during exams is because i don't want to be near the bed. Sleep has always been the most tempting temptation. I always get sleepy each time I see a bed. Whenever I'm determined to study and when I have no choice but to stay in my room, I always force my self not to lie down while reading or else, in a matter of seconds, the books will cover my face, and I will start snoring. 

Studying in my room is one of the hardest thing for me to do. My room is just the haven of all temptations. I see my roommates talking and laughing, I join them. When I see my phone, I just text someone, line someone or open facebook. When I see my laptop, the same is happening, I check my facebook, comment, and like on someone's status. Why do I have to do that during exams? Gosh. Sometimes, I also watch one episode of anime I'm watching, and always saying "just one more episode" until I finish the whole series.

If I happen to keep all my devices, I always have something to do whenever I'm in my room. There are times I would practice putting on make up, or dance in front of the mirror.

I just have so many temptations. Sometimes I have to do drastic measures to avoid it, like locking everything in someone's room. To take back my concentration to what I'm reading, sometimes I'd have to stand on top of a chair and read them out loud using different pronunciation and accent. I look stupid but this is how things get in my head.

Sometimes, I talk talk to myself but if talking to myself don't work, i talk to the dog in the living room, telling him he should remember and memorize these things.

I really don't know why it's simply too hard to get my concentration. If you think I've been studying the whole week, well, I'm really struggling to study and find my mood!!! What most likely happens is cramming.

I think some whose gonna read this has been a victim of my random texting and chatting.

Was I the only one suffering this? Should I call this an abnormality or is it common to teens?

LOL.