Shit Happens

Some say its best to count our blessings than our misfortunes. Some say that good things come out of bad things. Even my favorite church song says they are blessings in disguise. But sometimes things go way out of hand, some are too much, some are petty yet gets on someone's nerves. There was one whole week (even a week after that) that i suffered to many misfortunes, and where I concluded, I, Katherine Rose Kapunan, born on the year of the rooster was the unluckiest person in the world. haha.

Guimaras/Odyssey misfortunes

1. During shooting our movie Odyssey, i had my menstruation. So, i am limited to shooting scenes that doesn't involve immersing myself in water which makes it frustrating to see some other people holding your camera and not shoot the way you want it to be. :(

2. While shooting a scene, which took so long before the actors got it right, i got wet because the water rises as i move into its depths to shoot a better angle. As the waves thrash. . . oh well, you should know why i don't want to get wet. It's not the nicest feeling you know.

3. Our 2 days stay at Guimaras Island to shoot the movie wasn't really productive. To start with, we were late, and the making of props took so long, the impulse to enjoy was too strong, and someone was just making the shooting duration so long. Simple as that.

4. While I was so upset because we were so unproductive on the first day, and some other matters i would not like to mention, I sat on the shore, reflected and wrote something on my laptop. I didn't plan to eat, but my best friend might have notices i wasn't there so he brought me food. By the time the wind got too strong, i  decided to leave. I ran tightly hugging my laptop, but because it was dark and i can't see where i'm stepping, i didn't see the elevated sand, and stumbled. Face down. Whole body. Nothing supported me. So my laptop ate all the sand it could take. When I stood up, I also wiped my face, and my laptop. haha. Three men saw me and it was so embarrassing!

5. While also shooting a scene, the waves were to strong, and i was standing against rocks. So the camera, gets droplets of water plus sand. >.<

DFA: Processing of Passport/JENESYS application

(We were catching a 5 o'clock deadline so these misfortunes were delays.)

6. My NSO birth certificate was still at LBC Jaro, so i had to get it, while processing. It took up most of my time.

7. I was scolded countless times at DFA due to delay.

8. After processing at DFA, i took my studio picture at Gaisano, but well, of all times, why was i closing my eyes in that freaking picture? So i had to take another picture.

9. I had to fill up the application in pen, because my classmate says it should be, scanned my documents because that same classmate didn't follow what we've agreed earlier, and scanned just HIS documents and left ours. We later discovered that we can submit the application type-written and that classmate passed ahead of us. Oh well, what do you expect, we didn't catch the deadline, so did he. (hmmmwaahhha)

School. Just school

10. I wasn't able to study for the long test in World Literature because i wasn't able to wake up early. I just didn't hear my alarm clock.

11. The most devastating incident of all. Our video clips was corrupted. Yes. CORRUPTED. I dare not mention the details. It hurts.

12. Props made of bamboo fell right on top of my head. Gosh, of all places. Why my head?

13. I had to edit the movie all by myself ( rr helped a bit. Just a bit.) and wasn't able to study for my exams on weekends

14. I did not enjoy the shooting because i was too stressed catching up deadlines.

15. There was a time, i plainly didn't have any money. Like today.

16. I wanted to move in the newly constructed boarding house next door, but because i was advertising too much, they ran out of single rooms. Wow, so much advertising, they should have paid me.

18. My classmates borrowed my handbook on local governance to photocopy it, but the photocopier closed  before they were able to get it back, so i was left with nothing to study on, and reasons why i bought the book sank in, pushed tears out of my eyes, and smoke out of my ears and nose and mouth. haha.

19. While i was thrashing and wrecking my room because of anger, my pencil skirt ripped, but it made me stop thrashing.

20. I studied hard to the extent that if-only-brain-could-throw-up-it-would-have. But for goodness sake, why did i think the exam was scheduled 9:30 instead of 9:00? There, there, so I was 40 minutes late. How's that?

21. While making a caricature of my answers, oh, while i was writing with all the speed my hand and my brain could offer, i ran out of ink, so i had to snatch a pen on the teacher's table. By the way, i had to beg for an extension to my professor so i had to chase him while writing, wasting NO TIME at all. Haha. I found out it was better to write on a desk. The floor would also do.

22. Because i was studying on coffee shops, i drink coffee every night. Result? Tonsillitis. So i had slight fever on the day of IRO exam.

There are a lot more, but i wasn't able to list them down. And I eventually forgot. This would be the last time, me counting misfortunes, coz i'm gonna list down my blessings next. :D

Hail Ye My Generation

It's March. It's graduation time. I saw this post on facebook, actually it's my Professor's. It really caught my eye because of it's philosophical nature because of the parlance used. As you know, I've had EEEEENNNNNOOOOUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHH of political theory. So things like this knocks like no one in my memory and intellect. chos. kunu abi.

To all graduating students,
 Hail ye my generation!

Born thinkers of freedom.

In the fast changing pace of society;

We dare to achieve equality,

In voice, position and quest for liberty,

To achieve a balance and participative community.

Hail ye my generation!

Born activists.

Managed to cross the borders of societal limits;

Criticized by moralists.

We believed into rational actions,

Better than hypocrites.

Hail ye my generation!

Born to rational decisions.

We hate to follow unreasonable justifications;

Much more, those having instant decisions.

We love courage to do beyond the usual things,

Others do not, therefore, we're daring.

Hail ye my generation!

Born bold and wild.

We raise our middle fingers

..to those pretenders of righteousness;

..to believers of ungrounded ethics;

..to faithfuls of unfounded beliefs.

(copyright 2010|Reymund B. Flores. No part of this literary work may be distributed without the author's consent.)

Tomodachi

I have so many things in mind.
I have so many things I want to write about.
I have so many things to do.
I have so many things I want to do.

But since blogging my thoughts is a great reliever, I'm gonna write about a thing that bothers me at the moment.

Each one of us needs a friend. In fact, we always have that one friend we're most comfortable, and we call them our best friend. Best friends could either be a guy or a girl. It doesn't really matter. But for generalization's sake, let's use "He" as a pronoun.

If we go back to my younger younger years, i would probably define best friend as that certain someone who's always at your side, physically or emotionally, knows most of your inner feelings, your secrets, your likes, your desires, your mannerisms, your attitude, the size of your clothes, your shoes, your favorite book, the number of your split ends - oh, that was over the top, but the point is, he knows the whole you. But I realized as I mature, best friends doesn't necessarily have to be at your side, as long as he's someone who you could run to, that someone who understands you, that someone who you feel most comfortable with, do crazy things and even express your anger, and throw a tantrum in front of him. That person who always understands, I call him my best friend.

I don't need to know every single thing he does and he doesn't necessarily have to know what I always do. If you call this weird, and stick to that traditional meaning of bestfriend, well that's fine. But I am the kind of person who thinks it's good to keep things for myself. What's the point of keeping secrets, if someone reads it out of your mind anyway? Some overly attached bestfriends are psychics. haha. But it's still a good thing having someone understand you even when you don't say a word.

Enough of defining friendship. . .

I am the kind of person who doesn't hold grudges. I can't even last having a cold war for a few days with some friends. Just cheer me up and I will definitely smile back as if nothing happened. I take friendships seriously, that it even bothers me at night having a fight with someone. I say it casually as if i don't care but deep in side it hurts. I am the kind of person who likes to keep my feelings under my sleeve. I laugh as if nothing bothers me and I keep quiet when I can't bear it any longer or when I feel sooooo guilty with my wrongdoings against that person.

But what if you've done nothing wrong? Or you didn't know you've done something wrong? Will he not at least give you an answer? You know, the rudest thing I could ever imagine is talking to someone gaily then act as if your presence bears no meaning at all - as if you don't exist. When I get mad at someone, i don't entirely ignore them. When he asks, I give an answer as cold as ice, but I respond at least. When I ignore someone who persistently asks, it doesn't mean i'm mad. Certain circumstances just give me no time to answer, or I am currently talking to somebody. I can't give attention to both persons!


When someone treats me like shit, as shit as that shit, well I'll treat you like shit too.
As water does, people has boiling points too.
As high as mountains, people have pride too.
As pens lose ink, people lose patience too.
And as I sign off, something might sign off too.

I knocked, but the door was closed. The owner seems to be away, or pretends to be away.

*I am really sorry about the dogs, I just find them too cute. haha
credits to the owner of these photos.

GAYWHORE FAMEWHORE

You know Bitch. . . (Oh no. Sorry, you don't even deserve to be called a bitch 'coz you're not a real girl! In you're freaking dreams).

Let me start over. A more diplomatic approach with a seasoning of pity on you.

I really thought you were smart, but with your recent acts, you proved me wrong. If you've only known two sides, weighed on which contentions has more merit, and reacted on what is right, we could have understood you. You don't just react on something unknown to you. You reacted impulsively, and you said harsh things, you even generalized. That's where I find you at fault.

You don't even know what you are saying. You acted as if your SO freaking smart and we are so stupid with what we've done. In fact, you are stupid, we only fought for what is right. That's what you don't understand. which made you damn stupid.

We didn't do this because we wanted to prove something. We did it because we don't want to tolerate a crooked system that will govern us all. We wanted students to know, we want them to feel that they we're actually oppressed. We want them to realize that this has to stop. We do not want students to be as ignorant as you are. And what is wrong with that? Is it wrong because your narrow mind cannot accept a deviation from the status quo? Then you are a tolerant, ignorant and too conservative narrow minded bastard!

We did the right thing in a right way. If what we did was just making a scene, why don't you go to school, so we could make a true scene? Let's see if your skin doesn't peel off when we drag you all over the rough roads of WVSU.

Remember that you started this. We didn't post anything on social networking sites because we do things legally. We complained through petitions, and disseminated information through flyers when our petition was denied. It was part of the democratic process, and there was definitely nothing wrong with that. You alleged that we made a scene, and even branded us FAMEWHORES. What was unforgivable was calling all Pol.sci Students having NO ETHICS AND VALUES. Well, manong. Look at that. With you posting harsh words towards us, how dare you say that to us as if you have ethics and values. For me, your move, your contention, your reasons, your posts, your reaction, your words were all STUPID GAY ACTS. Nang daw pang waiting shed bala!

Because we cannot bear your harsh posts, and you turning the story round and about any longer, we accepted your challenge to meet us at school. We also wanted to explain to you our side, and grant you salvation from ignorance, but you turned back with your tail between your legs. That's how I look at it, Coward! Kaisog sa imo magpost2, di ka man gali ka atubang sa amon. And now, because you're so freaking scared you, post back stabs on twitter. Wow.

If you're so sure about what you said, you wouldn't be afraid facing all of us.

We were trying our best not to reply, to comment or to post anything about you because we don't want to step down on your level, there at the grass roots. This is why, i'm posting it here, not because I'm scared but because I don't want to step down and be a loser like you. You want this kind of fight right? I know this is where you're really good at. MANG-OKRAY. AGI ka nga daan. So, though i don't know how to okray properly, I think this is it.

I just wanted to express how much I wanted to stab you and cut your tongue and fingers right now.
Since, I've said something but not yet everything, I sign off to this issue and move on and study for my finals.