Dear Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,

It might take a couple of years before we finally meet. My heart longs to see you, but I can wait for the time isn't right. I still do not know you. I don't know your name. I don't know if it starts with A, B C, or K just like mine. I do not yet know your whereabouts. You might be around somewhere, you might be near, you might be miles away.

I wonder if you have nice brown eyes, a sculptured face, white teeth, sharp nose and broad shoulders. I wonder if you're the rebellious type, the good guy, the childish or the smart guy. You're not here yet. Your identity is a whole package of mystery. Surprise me, Future Husband.

Whoever you are, I shall love you for all eternity, never breaking the vows we'll exchange on that flowery altar in front of my uncle priest, with all our teary eyed relatives on the pews. I will never betray you, for i will uphold the promise I made on that drizzly afternoon on the beach, to be the last person I will love on this planet.

I will be the best wife anyone can wish for but will never have except you. I will sleep on your shoulders cold nights, for on your side is the only warm place I could ever be. I will make your coffee every morning and prepare your breakfast because frying is the only thing I could do. I will kiss you good bye and bid you good luck as we separate for our respective jobs.

I will watch the news with you on early evenings on the living room. I will listen to your spiel about the recent current events and debate with you if I have to. I will buy pizza on Saturday nights and watch movies with our kids. Videos will also be taken when you happily play with our kids. I will capture those priceless and precious laughter, and place them on frames and photo albums and not on facebook.

I will always be your partner in every endeavor you yearn for. When you feel tired of life, remember I might be tired too, but emblazon this on your mind. "I will never grow tired of you." So let us enjoy life even for a bit, so that we can move on to a much serious path. I can drink with you bottoms up with a rum. But I will scold you, when you've had too much. I will be joining you when you still feel like playing computer games or online games. But I will definitely smack you when you trash talk, but only after I laugh. As you well know, I trash talk too.

You will have my respect as the head of the family. I will respect your decisions as regards the kids welfare, but speak up whenever I find something wrong or inappropriate. 

You can tell me everything when something came up at work. I will advise you and guide you through your decisions if you want me to, but not as far as interfering. I will be your best friend, and your comforter during the bad days. I will make you smile and offer you a hot beverage when you're feeling blue. Even when the whole world is against you, always remember that I will be the first to come to your rescue and be the last to leave you. 

When we grow old, I will let you read this and confirm if I have kept my words. Time flies. Today you may not be here, but who knows I will bump with you tomorrow.

Till we meet.

                                                                                                                  love and waiting,

                                                                                                                  Your Future Wife.

I could be vain too!

I'm not the type of girl who takes and post pictures most of the time. I take pictures, but only when someone tells me to. I don't know, but I feel ashamed whenever I have a gadget, like camera, smartphones and laptop, or anything out of the ordinary gadgets. That's why I don't buy them. I would only have the confidence to use them on public whenever I tell them it's not mine. Not just gadgets! Anything that I have that is new! I always tell people, "Hatag lang ni" or "dugay na ni kag". But when I see people get used to me having it, I gather the confidence to proclaim my possession over such thing. LOL. That's why I hate taking pictures in public. (It's okay if the camera isn't mine. haha. weirdo me)

So moving on. . . (

I don't always take pictures of my self but when I do, I do loads of them! Only when I get bored though. haha. 

Oh yeah. Nerdeh! haha

I got this nerdy glasses from my friend Malou. She let me borrow it, and I haven't given it back yet. haha. I wonder when would that be. :D

Whenever I got bored with studying, I always take a break with taking pictures of my self. I'm always alone studying downstairs. So it's a good way to make my self at ease at the moment before proceeding. I could also be vain when I'm bored!

How about drawing thick eyebrows? Another stress reliever! I was making my term papers when these were taken. And, this was my 19th birthday too!

I take pictures because I'm bored. So this is one of those boring moments of my life, that I have to resort to taking pictures to keep my sanity. haha.

All smiles! Sometimes, you just have to mask your sadness with a smiling smile. What smile is better than a smiling smile? LOL

I took this earlier. It's after midterm so nothing beats my boredom every after exams. I don't know what to do, I have nothing to study, and I DEFINITELY DON'T WANT TO STUDY. I can't really watch anime for long coz my eyes hurt. I wanted to do something different since I have plenty of time on my hands. I can't do this when I have so much things to do. You see, I'm an amateur. haha.

 I don't know anything about make up! While I was putting up eye shadow, I don't even know if I really did put some color. haha. I can't differentiate the the changes in color when my roommate-teacher (in cosmetology, haha) told me i have to blend it. I can't tell if my blush on is even. 

The hardest was shaping my eyebrows! I once placed too much black thingy on it. Luckily, my roommate patched it up. I can't tell if i've place the right amount of eyeshadow or eyeliner on my brows. It's really difficult! I also thought putting lipstick is the easiest. So, I went ahead without instruction, proud to know something about make up, but ended up putting the lipstick too uneven, scared of it coming out of my lip line. haha. It was concentrated on the center, and left nothing at the sides. But I patched it up! Look! haha

My favorite part was putting a nose line. 'Twas the easiest. 

Feeling ko ang cute cute ko! aw a. haha

Well! So much for now! I don't usually post pictures, but when I do, it's like this. Adios, mi amiga, mi amigo!

Good Evening

I rummaged my brain for something to post, but i find it difficult because i have so much things on my mind which eventually confused me. Therefore, i decided to start up twitter and look for some trending topics and write something about it in order to feed this blog with ramblings of the little miss pessimist. I just want to write. It's sometimes nice to talk on paper (laptop rather) than people. It saves a lot of my precious saliva. :D

Obviously my title says, Good Evening, so i say Good Evening to you reader! I can't relate with the other trending topics, except good evening. I wanted to write about Taylor Swift, but I'm not yet a huge fan to praise her, but i like her songs, i know almost all of them, and i find her really pretty, but I don't know anything aside from that. Writing the lyrics of the song would be pretty boring and posting the pictures sounds pretty hassle too. I'm a lazy person you know, and i'm really in a hurry right now because i have to read Curtis' Great Political thinkers. It's our midterms next week so i really have to catch up with my lessons since i didn't read much during the holidays. Why would anyone read on the holidays anyway? It's supposed to be a break from school so better have it as as a literal break from college work!

I'm just free writing right now so i really think i don't make any sense. It's sometimes nice to type randomly and right the things on your mind without thinking hard of how to make it creative, poetic, heart-warming and whatever sort of adjective you'd like to insert.

By the way, I'm just posting to say Good evening! :D

(If there are any grammatical errors, please bear with me, i don't like to read it again and check. haha)

GOOD EVENING!

Memoirs of 2012

If we roll back the strands of time and reminisce what has transpired in my 2012 sojourn, this post would be pretty lengthy and it would be hard due to the kind of memory that I have.

2012 was pretty tough. I lived through my last semester of my 2nd year and 1st sem of my 3rd year. Nothing big or special really happened that I should take note. I live a mediocre almost close to boring life. If there are no people around me to spice my life, I could have been the person in 2012 who suffers drudgery.

In 2012, i gained friends and tightened bonds with old friends and also gathered a few (or more) enemies and lost some close friends. The last months of 2nd year college must have been the toughest times for me. I didn't know what caused it, it just happened.  But in the same year, i was also given the opportunity to bring these lost friends closer but not as close as before. At the end of the year, we ended up laughing together like long old friends, and i am happy with that.

My only biggest issue during the year is the coming and going of friends. When it comes to friends, it becomes a big deal and it can even hamper my study habit. That's how affected i am whenever a friend gets mad at me even for a few hours.

I don't have a love life to brag, since it's not my wish to have one at the moment. But i have a few people who made my heart thump. I dare not mention names. They are all crushes, nothing like falling for something serious. I easily forget about them, whenever i watch anime, movies and series, surf the internet and plunge into books.

In the recently surpassed year, I met and knew my other relatives better than before. I was able to show them my prowess at some things through facilitating the clan reunion. It was an exhausting and stressful event with me running to and fro, but the feeling afterwards was exhilarating due to its eventual success.

I had a few triumphs and failures in my studies. My 2nd year ended with a silver medal, but i lost a scholarship on my 1st semester of 3rd year. My studies constituted the tough part of my 2012. Sleepless nights on catching up with lessons, aching and tired hands with pages of essays, and cluttered room because of bundles of photocopied readings. Me, my books, pens, papers and laptop always have a slumber party and sleep together. Lots and lots of coffee and tea to keep me awake, i was famished during the nights of studying, yet i still find time to watch anime and movies before or after that. :D

There are loads to say, but i don't have time to spare.
Happy New Year!
Goodbye 2012, and welcome 2013. :D